On being a shy girl

Quote of the Day: "He's as boring as stale tapwater." - A friend upon coming home from a terrible blind date.

I have a confession to make. Deep down I am a shy girl. I know that people reading who know me will find that hard to believe. In some ways I am still very shy and old fashioned when it comes to the opposite sex. I still like it when a guy opens the car door. I dig it when a guy pays on the first date. I've never asked a guy on a date and I don't plan on it. I don't make the first move and I think I am actually incapable of doing so. Instead I just have to sit and wait and hope that batting my eyelashes might do the trick. It's clear that I'm not liberated. I haven't burned my bra yet - as much as I would like to (it's a harness anyway).

I also have a hard time making friends. I have lots of buddies - movie buddies, football buddies, IM buddies etc. but I find it hard to make true friends. I value the few friends that I do have, especially now, because lord nows I haven't made many around here. It's not that I'm awkward socially. A lot of it has to do with having very little in common with people around here. Most of the people seem nice enough but I've found that it is hard to connect when the only thing you have in common with another person is the insulated bubble that is law school, a world of its own. And really, who wants to think about law school anymore than need be? Plus, one of the 'fun' things to do around here is go to the bar. I'm far from a teetotaler but my idea of fun is not going out to the bar and getting smashed. It's cool for other people, you know college days and all...to me it's just incredibly boring. It's probably me that's boring and I guess I'm ok with that.

The point is, I sit in the house a lot, alone and have been increasingly anti-social. I've watched more tv in the last 2 years than I probably should admit. I'm trying to correct that: Last night I went out with J. and some other buddies. Tonight I'm going bowling with Blackberry and some other folks tonight. I'm an absolutely horrible bowler and the company will be good, so it should be a good time. Tomorrow I'm going to dinner with Strawberry and her family and then to her graduation. On Friday I am going to need some time to myself which is good because I have to do laundry and pack and get out of here! Yay!

I'm looking forward to Virginia and seeing my nephew. I bet he's taller than me by now. Happy Holidays!