Random thoughts

"It would be like going to Amsterdam and not taking a walking tour of famous doors." - Milhouse

Blackberry reminds me that I have not updated my blog in forever. I keep thinking of posts to write on this blog and haven't updated because I read the last few posts and they were kind of a downer. I've been doing a lot of sleeping lately, most of which has been done during the day. I'm not sure if that's a plus or a minus.

The probbem with living in a small apartment like the one that I live in now, is that just a few things out of place can make it seem like a pig sty. And right now, there are more than a few things out of place. There's no excuse for it really but I seem to have become a pack rat over the last 2.5 years. There are books everywhere, too many for my already full shelves, there's candles everywhere and stacks of pretty much everything. In response to the chaos I scrubbed the kitchen floor and baked chocolate chip and peanut butter cookies. My time probably would have been better spent arranging things that aren't in their proper place.

I haven't been managing my time very efficiently recently anyway, so why should I be organized while cleaning the house? My weekend has been seriously unproductive. Friday I stayed in the house all day and my farthest trip was to the mailbox. Yesterday I went to the African-American history museum with some buddies and then we went out to an early dinner and then to another place for coffee and dessert. I wore high heels and my feet were killing me at the end of the day. The museum was huge. Today? I repeated Friday's agenda. In my defense it was raining all day. The rain has melted most of the snow away and it's kind of a sloshy mess outside. It's a bad idea for me to be out there. I could slip and fall again.

A friend asked me if I was going to do any homework. I do have classes tomorrow. I've decided against it for now. I've got 44 pages for Business Associations to read and since I don't have class until Tuesday, it doesn't seem very pressing right now. Hopefully I can get to it tomorrow. I have 2 classes tomorrow but nothing else to do. I mean, I need to watch 24 and I probably should do my laundry and get some groceries but other than those things I have plenty of time. I bet it will take me 6 hours to read it because I can only read a few pages before my mind starts to wander uncontollably. The only class I can concentrate on for more than 15 minutes is my Trial classes, and that's only because our case is fairly interesting, it's a lot of material, and I don't want to be the one slacker on my team who makes us lose when we have trial in April!

Spill

Link of the Day: Are you Marcus Vick? (via K.D.)

Today, I busted my ass outside. It was unintentionally hilarious. I went outside to get something out of the car. I threw caution to the wind and went out in pj pants, a tank top and some Addidas slides. It had been snowing for the last 24 hours and finally stopped. Still...I went out in slides. I made it all the way to the corner and bam! slid and found myself flat on my back. Luckily a mound of snow cusioned the fall and lessened some of the potential brain damage. No one was around when it happened although I kinda hope someone saw it through their window and got a good laugh.

I still have not finalized what is going to happen to me after graduation. The public defender dream is still alive but fading pretty fast. I've got a semi-solid backup plan that doesn't excite me at all. And while the beat of what to do with my life goes on, I still have not found the appropriate amount of motivation for the semester. The holiday - while fun - did not help in the get it together department. I've actually given up the hope of getting it together and am just hoping that I can pull out a 2.0 for the semester. On the plus side my business orgs class isn't nearly as boring as I thought it was going to be. My trial class has not really picked up yet but I generally enjoy my trial ad classes so I have high hopes for it.

My grand plan for tomorrow is to watch tv all day, take naps, and bake. This post makes me sure that I have become the most boring person on the earth. A shell of what used to be a vibrant, mostly pleasant girl. If I were the type of person who had proclivities towards the bottle, I think I would be three sheets to the wind most of the time.

Mohawk Time

It's Saturday night. I just spent an hour trying to make my hair into a super mega mohawk. It didn't work. I am doing anything to procrastinate. I should be reading the mound of materials for my trial class. That's what I planned to do, because I have to watch football. I have done nothing so far. Yay.

Also Seattle = Awesome for knocking my enemy out of the playoffs.

Looking Around

Quote of the Day: "Lawyers get paid a lot of money not to have opinions." [Or souls.] -Stephen Colbert

On Tuesday, my professor called me out in class. We had been in class for an hour and 10 minutes and I had turned in my chair. So my professor says: "Yes, Ms. Ditzy, it's 5:10 and we've only gone through one case." To which I replied: "I wasn't looking at the clock..." And I really wasn't looking at the clock - with my computer sitting right in front of me, I don't need to turn 180 degrees to find out what time it is. I bit my tongue and did not finish my sentence. What I really was doing, was looking for black people. That's right. I know it sounds shady but there is a severe lack of diversity* at my school (like a lot of other schools) and after 2.5 years I can honestly say that I'm still not used to it. So, it's become a habit for me to look for at least one other black person while I'm in class. It never occcurs to me to do this before class starts - it always seems to happen after I've been sitting there for a while looking out at everyone in class that I wonder if I'm the only one in there. Which, unfortunately, is fairly often. Anyway, I'm not sure why I bit my tongue. Maybe it's a sign of maturity that I kept my smart ass comments to myself. Maturity is actually for the birds.


*I'm not saying that diversity = black people.

Breaking up is hard to do

Article of the Day: Don't mess with mice.

I should be sleeping. I have this whole plan to sleep more this year. It's not a resolution really just a goal. I promised myself that this would be the year that I finally break off my long term relationship with insomnia. I'm going to try to shoot for 7 hours of sleep every night, which while not the doctor recommended amount of sleep, it a whole lot for me personally and maybe I can get up to eight next year. I'm averaging about 5.5 right now. Unfortunately for my goal, I feel a lot more alert right now at 12:25 AM than I did at 3:00 this afternoon. I resisted the siren song of a nap hoping that between the reading for class this morning (which was dreadful) and what seems like 8 billion errands that I would be completely out of it by this time. Instead, I feel like I could stay up for at least 4 more hours. I would go for a walk but it's positively arctic outside and plus I saw a possum thingy outside earlier that I wouldn't want to run into at night.

As far as the semester goes (the semester that starts tomorrow), I have completely checked out already. Yesterday I caught myself mentally packing all of my stuff. I'm going to have to snap out of it fairly quickly (by noon tomorrow at least) because I have 4 classes, law review and a lot of assorted other things that I need to worry about before I even think about packing up to get out of here. May is still a long long way off.

I need to make a resolution that encompasses the correction of my attitude. I've been doing a lot of staring off into space lately. It took me four hours to read for my business organizations class. It probably would have gone faster if I didn't stop to do 1000 other things that didn't need to be done while I was in the middle of studying. All I can think about is all of the stuff that I need to do but damn if I can find any energy or motivation to actually do it. I spent an hour wandering around Target today and that very well might have been the most productive thing that I did all day. I'll be damned if I can remember any of the reading I did. I took a ton of notes so that will help me come class time. For now my brain has found a nook to hide in. I need something to coax it out of hiding and quite frankly I don't think classes is going to do it.

I can even put a finger on what it is about this semester that I am dreading so much. I don't have any more responsibilities than I did last semster. I have 3.5 classes and yet I feel like banging my head against the desk. I probably just need someone to kick me squarely in the ass and say "Get going, bitch!" No volunteers please!

I would like to officially announce that my iPod, Pumpkin, and I have officially called it quits. Between its battery problems, dead head phone jack, drive issues and the fact that it was almost completely full, our relationship was not making it. It was a long relationship but we can no longer be together. Since I can't live without tunes in my hand, I replaced it with a very sleek black 30GB model (pictured). BlackBeauty and I are deeply in love already. And considering that I had an Apple gift certificate and a student discount to use for the purchase I'd say that this is the beginning of a very good relationship.

Family Ties

Comments from the plane:

Good: "We should be arriving a few minutes early." Pilot - man, I am tired of flying lately.
Bad: "Lady, will you please take control of your offspring?" Guy in 13A (to the woman in 14A who was letting her child hit him in the head).
Funny: "Excuse me ma'am, there's a gremlin on the side of the plane." - Guy in 13E (the flight attendant didn't think it was funny; I thought it was hilarious. I think he might have been drunk.)

Over the break I've gotten to spend some quality time with my family and two things really stood out for me all of a sudden: 1. My sister is a carbon copy of my mom and 2. I am nothing like either of them. That's not surprising and it's not necessarily a bad thing. My mom and sister live within a mile of each other and see each other day. The like similar things: Plants, CSI, Murder Mystery books, and slide on tennis shoes. They even seem to be able to speak to each other without talking. I haven't successfully kept a plant alive yet and probably neverwill. I'm oversimplifying of course but sometimes when I am at home I feel woefully out of place, almost like a distant cousin in town for a visit. It doesn't help that my biological clock is ticking loudly in my mother's head and she doesn't not understand that marriage and babies are not quite top priority in my life at the moment. My nephew was a very bright spot over the holidays. My family and I played a lot of board games and card games, and I had a good time. Now I am back here, ready to start my final semester of law school...

...And I am dreading it. I barely have any classes this semester. As a matter of fact, one of my classes ends halfway through the semester and I totally lack motivation. I am trying to work up the strength to get my books tomorrow but I will probably have to wait until Sunday. There are more pressing things on the horizon right now, most of which revolve around fun books, naps, movies, and t.v. Slacking is the most important thing in life right now. I have all of my priorities in order.