Thank You Mario. But Our Princess Is In Another Castle

Want to waste 5 hours of your life and enjoy it? Try this: Super Mario Crossover.  I cannot beat the Super Mario Brothers for Wii yet.  I am up to level 8 and, unfortunately, I  have not had time to play since I went there.  Part of the reason I cannot beat it is because I am just so goddamn greedy. I have to get every possible coin.  I have to kill every turtle and every mushroom.  I sometimes go back a few steps and kill a turtle if I missed one.  One time, I stopped to kill a mushroom that was falling off a cliff.  Even though it was falling to its death, I shot it with a fireball anyway, just because.

I am starting to wonder if my greed while playing Super Mario is a metaphor for my work life.  I do not love my job.  Most days I don't even like it.  I was trying to think of the reasons I have not put any serious effort into looking for a new job that would probably be more rewarding.  I have not come up with any.  The only things I can think of are that 1) I am super lazy and 2) I like money a lot.  As to #1, I am lazy because I haven't gotten up the motivation to look for a job. I know how hard it is to send out resumes and follow up and the like.  I think #2 is probably self explanatory. I should say though, it's not that I'm some crazy person who thinks about money all the time, I just like being able to buy little things for myself as needed (wanted). 

In fact, when I am feeling blue or anxious, I have two comforts: comfort food and shopping. I've tried to cut out comfort foods (because I need to lose weight) so that leave shopping as my only alternative (well, that and watching movies all day, I'm sure that wouldn't fly at work though).  I enjoy spending an hour in Sephora or Macy's or Best Buy.  I don't necessarily buy anything but sometimes I cannot resist.  Lately I have been feeling very anxious.

KD has been pushing me to look for a new job.  This is probably partly because he's tired of hearing me complain about ti, but I doubt he would actually admit that.  The other part of it is that everyday I wake up and say "I don't wanna go to work!" and then when I come home from work I need 30 minutes to an hour to change my attitude from the work day. 
I need to find a way to change my habits and become un-lazy and get up the motivation to look for a new job. I am not sure how to get started though.  Maybe I will take a walk at lunch today and try to figure it out.  I just hope I don't stop at Macy's.